I often plague my brain with thoughts of what if.  It’s a game I play to somehow make me feel that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be in life even if I don’t’ technically believe that.  Now the game can be played in both the positive or the negative depending on your mindset… Continue reading What If?

The minutes turned into hours, the hours into days and the days into weeks.  Silence.  I heard nothing.  I felt nothing.  It was like everything I ever knew was being questioned.  I had been through stuff, hard, rough, life changing stuff, but I had never been affected by one human being this way.  I tried with… Continue reading Days Turned Into Weeks

The next few days I was just going through motions.  I was throwing myself into my work and keeping myself busy.  I went through my days empty and lackluster.  It took all I had to make it to 5 o’clock every day without falling apart.  I text Frick and Frack and told them “Never Again. … Continue reading Purple Bathrobe

I knew Dimples wasn’t saying what he thought he was saying.  I figured he was trying to say something completely different and his words were getting jumbled.  I was being kicked when I was down.  It all felt so surreal.  How could this man, the one I had given so much to, the one I… Continue reading And The Hits Keep Coming

He Said Should I stay or should I go? You’ve got to know when to hold ‘em, know when to fold ‘em, know when to walk away, know when to run. Sound familiar? Almost too cliché? When it comes to sticking it out or leaving a relationship, we wish it was as easy as the… Continue reading He Said / She Said – Clash of the Gambler

The next morning I decided to work from home.  I was still in no mindset to go into the office and my face was still swollen and I looked like a bus hit me.  I sat in my home office in my purple bathrobe with Law & Order on quietly in the background, a candle… Continue reading If You Could Just Change

He Said All is fair in love and war. Famous words to live and die by. Love can be war and sometimes all you can hope to do is survive with a tie. Unless you are a male, then just expect that you will probably lose even though you are so sure that you have… Continue reading He Said / She Said – Fighting Fair

I must have fallen asleep at some point, cause when I woke up I could barely open my eyes.  They felt like they were glued shut and I could only see a tiny ray of light through the slits.  I had cried so much that they were swollen and it looked as if I had… Continue reading I’m a Hypocrite

A few days into my morbid emotional demise I received an email from Dimples.  It was explaining that he needed to talk to me and wanted me to know why he did what he did.  I wasn’t sure I could handle anymore.  I wasn’t sure that my already fractured heart was in any position to… Continue reading Tears From The Depths of Me

The next few days were really tough for me.  The world had a grey cast over it, like a shadow I couldn’t shake.  It felt dark and cold and alone and I hated it. Breaking up has a myriad of emotions, like all grief.  It’s a process and I was still in stand still disbelief… Continue reading Silence is Deafening

“Back To The Story” I left my girlfriend’s house and wasn’t sure what to do.  I don’t know about you, but when I’m upset, happy, sad, angry or virtually any emotion all I want is my mom. So as I drove in silence in my car fully composed I headed to my parent’s house. I… Continue reading The Day After Blindside

He Said Let’s conduct an experiment. Stand up if you like to travel. Remain standing if you bring one or more suitcases with you. Remain standing if you over-pack. Good, now if you don’t care if you drag around luggage that weighs 50 pounds or more and don’t care if you pay extra, stay on… Continue reading Travel Light or Travel Heavy – The Baggage Dilemma